Dec 19 2008
I Can Not Sleep
I told her that I wasn’t going to talk to her until yoga and now I’m being kept awake by thoughts of her. I am so in love with her that I can’t stay away though I must. Claude says that for personal freedom, I must be willing to hurt feelings. I have to resist the urge to call or text. I must not answer her calls or reply to texts. I can’t e-mail her or respond to her e-mails. Do I even read them?
This seems like such a painful endeavor. I used to claim that I could walk away in 30 seconds or less. I used to be able to. Not this time.
Of course, it’s the love. It’s the longing. It’s the void that is left from her absence. This one is going to take more time. More time than I want to spend hurting and healing.
Man, this sucks.
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